Spirit sent me to the Cedar Grove in June of 2018 where I was met with open arms and held in the embrace of my dear, nurturing friend, Pam. All the whilst I was coming undone as an inner earthquake was erupting.

 

I immediately felt welcomed and quickly realized that Elissabeth who also lived on the land, was to become my sister along my journey.

 

It’s not easy to describe this undoing. This falling. This breaking open I was experiencing. I knew I needed to be companioned through this liminal space and held with love, light and the Spirit of the Divine.

 

I was shown my new space: The Gnosis…a place of learning, contemplation, sensing into what IS. I welcomed being in nature as she is such a teacher and reflection of life. Simple and beautifully crafted is the best way to describe the cabin. I loved the space. It was quaint; a space whose walls sheltered me in an embrace of love energy. Art and shelves lined with personal growth books inspired my writing and reflection on the small desktop.  

 

Located near the edge of the trees away from the main house, I truly felt a sense of remoteness; yet within a five-minute walk, I could be in the presence of others. The silence invited me into my own exploration to the gravity I carried across the miles…for years. Surrounded by cedar trees, as I stepped out the door onto the earth, I was transported to what felt like wilderness with the smell of evergreens. I was actually experiencing my own wilderness as I explored the landscape of my soul. Something was needing to be let go, be released. Something wanted to emerge although I didn’t know what it was.

 

Every corner of this small cabin served its purpose. A place to write, meditate and practice yoga. A single bed to rest and read. At night I heard the call of owls and at dawn, I saw deer welcoming me to a new day.

 

The Gnosis was a place I would come to know as home while I rode the waves of emotion toward healing and transformation—a return to Home. I AM home. 

                                                                                         Lorri Hanna